“What I have come to realise, perhaps the most important thing, is that I will spend more time with my children and my grandchildren.
“I will dedicate more time to the people that I love and that is the way it should be: five children and ten grandchildren have turned me into a patriarch,” he added.
Despite his penchant for hair transplants and plastic surgery, even Berlusconi has not been able to stop the march of time.He underwent successful surgery in June to replace a faulty heart valve that could have cost him his life.
It was not his first intimation of mortality. He had a pacemaker fitted after a heart attack a decade ago and he was operated on for prostate cancer in 1997.
“Throughout my life I have never given any thought to my age. On the contrary I always lived as if I had 40 years because that is how I felt: full of curiosity and desire to do things,” he added.
Twice divorced, Berlusconi has lived for several years with Francesca Pascale, 31.
“Then the (heart) illness arrived out of the blue. And with the operation I underwent I had a very strong realisation that I am an 80-year-old man,” he revealed.
Other regrets include not being able to give enough time to his beloved AC Milan in recent years.
The seven-times champions of Europe have dropped to the level of also-rans in recent seasons having being starved of funds by their owner, who is now in the process of offloading the club to Chinese investors.
“If Milan has not done as well as before these past years, it is because I have not had the time to personally take care of it,” he lamented.
That, he claims, is the fault of politically-biased judges who have pursued him in a string of legal cases ranging from corporate tax fraud to having sex with an underage courtesan at one of his notorious Bunga Bunga sex parties.
“For years I have spent at least three afternoons a week with my lawyer preparing the 3,600 hearings I have had to endure in 73 political trials,” he said.
Tax fraud was the only conviction the supposedly “red” judges ever secured against Berlusconi.
Most charges failed because of court cases timing out. In the Bunga Bunga trial the judge accepted that he could not reasonably have known that his teenage prostitute lover, Karima El Mahroug, aka “Ruby the heart stealer”, was underaged at the time of their encounter.
The 2013 fraud conviction saw Berlusconi kicked out of parliament and, like a spurned lover, he now insists he never cared.
“Politics was never really my passion. All it did was make me lose a huge amount of time and energy. If I entered the ring it was only to stop communists from getting into power.”
Berlusconi was Italy’s longest-serving premier of the post-war period. But he does not appear to be leaving much of a political legacy.
Since his withdrawal from the political battleground, his party Forza Italia (FI), become marginalised, dropping from being Italy’s biggest political force in 2001 to a rump support of around 10-12 per cent of the electorate.
The Italian right as a whole meanwhile is divided between FI, the anti-immigrant, anti-EU Northern League and the New Centre Right, a minority partner in Prime Minister Matteo Renzi’s centre-left dominated government.
Berlusconi has left the building, but no one has emerged to replace him.
This article appeared in the South China Morning Post print edition as: Berlusconi laments life of regrets
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